Sunday, 20 December 2015
Proud to be Non-Conformist
All my life, I've had trouble fitting in. Being left out is no fun. But you know what's worse than being left out? Selling out - something that a lot of people have tried to make me do. For example, I have been told more times than I can remember to be more physically active and eat healthier. Yes, it's true, I don't live a healthy lifestyle. I eat a lot of fatty foods and I seldom eat any fruits or vegetables, but I'm not going to apologize for that and I'm not going to change it just because other people want me to, no matter how close they are to me. They can have my double cheeseburger when they pry it from my cold, dead hands!
And as for not being physically active, I make no apologies for that either. I don't care if you're a loved one or a medical professional. Stop bugging me about my weight, stop telling me to work out and stop judging me for wanting to be sedentary. I'm sorry, but the gym is not my friend, has never been my friend and never will be my friend. Furthermore, I'm sick and tired of people bragging about their healthy lifestyles and how much they hit the gym. If that's the way you choose to live, that's fine. Just don't expect me to live that way. Besides, I'm sure that many people who say they're happy about living a healthy lifestyle were once couch potatoes like myself. Well congratulations, folks! Way to sell out. You're not living a healthy lifestyle because you wanted to. You're doing it because you gave in to the pressure to do it.
The same goes for people who take an interest in something just because everyone else is doing it. I remember reading the short story of someone who was bullied and teased at school because he was one of those "nerdy" types who studied a lot. Then he decided to do what the other kids were doing and he was finally accepted. But to me, this isn't a happy ending. This is a story of surrender. Yes, it's true that if you don't think like everyone else and don't have the same interests that everyone else does, you'll probably have a very hard time fitting in. But that doesn't mean that you should give up who you are. And if you do want to change who you are or what your interests are, you should only do it on your terms and when you feel like it, not when someone else tells you to.
I spent the better part of my life trying to adapt to the customs of my peers in order to fit in, without seeing any results. So by the time I hit my 20's, I decided that I wouldn't try to fit in anymore. I may be lonely, but at least I have my dignity in knowing that I have not surrendered who I am. Besides, history remembers those who didn't go with the flow and tried to change the world around them rather than conforming to it. This is the way I would like to be remembered.